Thursday, May 26, 2005

I went out with my Grandma and my little cousin yesterday and that's my blessing for the week. My Grandma, my mum's mum, is my only living grandparent now. Although I'm not very close to her 'cos she mostly speaks in dialect and I don't see her that often, I love her dearly. She didn't receive much education, as was the case with girls in traditional Chinese families in those days. I see how such a lack of opportunities has deprived her of many, many material pleasures in life. How it's so much harder for her to converse with people in every day life. I see that and I understand how precious opportunities are. I see that and I wish she had an easier, more comfortable life. I see that and I admire and respect all the strength it takes to live the life she led in the past, and the one she continues to live on today. I love my ah ma.

My little cousin is an adorable 5yr old girl. She lost her mum to cancer. Many people think she's too young to really understand and I guess she is... But I know that one day, maybe soon, she'll realise what she doesn't have. She's surrounded by love still though. So much of it from relatives who truly care. Yet I think it's difficult to grow up like that 'cos there's simply no replacement. I'm sad thinking about such situations but she's growing up fine. I wish I could be a better cousin to her though.

I feel so blessed.

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