Saturday, April 30, 2005
I've felt that way at times too. Miserable and confused with what I'm doing in/to my life. And i'm so indecisive that i irritate myself.
Yep, moving on and letting go in that sense is more applicable to failed relationships. but i guess when we say moving on at this point, it means accepting that your old friends can't be around for you all the time. you don't let go of them. yet you have to admit that not letting go of your friends means making the effort to go out with them, finding the time to talk to them once in a while. i'm glad that i've found myself such wonderful friends, and i'm really sorry if i've not been around for them when they needed me most. just remember, i'm always only a message or a phone call away.
may
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
hmm...'Untitled' is a lovely song with nice lyrics. Not tt the lyrics are wonderful cos they r positive, those words definitely do not carry a positive outlook on life, but nevertheless, i think they are so apt in reflecting how we feel at times rite? or at least how i feel at times.
"maybe sometimes to move on, we have to find the strength to let go"...tt reminds me of the quote i used to carry on my file... "if you love someone, let them go...if they return, it was meant to be...if they dont, their love was never yours to begin with..." well, i dont think it's only about relationships with pple, but with certain things, certain experiences...certain memories too.
makes sense? nvm if i dont...
well well, thanx slug, for sharing such thought-provoking quotes and lyrics here. yeah, sometimes, a song alone captures more than wat we can say.
gdnite for now.
snail
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Lonerism of course has its setbacks. But sometimes being alone isn't that bad after all. I suppose we all have times when we just want to be alone. Yeah, at times, I do feel as though every one's moving on and leaving me behind. It's not often though. Most times I just feel lucky to have what I do. To have friends who would be there if I needed them and yet give me space when I need that too. In one of the episodes of OC someone said "maybe sometimes to move on we have to find the strength to let go." I don't think that's the case with friendship. It's possible to hold on and move on at the same time 'cos having a new group of friends doesn't mean we leave behind old ones. Haha letting go and moving on is more applicable to failed relationships, right?
Sitting in the car on the way back from school today, I was feeling miserable. Simple Plan's Untitled was playing on the radio and it was just so fitting. Came home, searched for the lyrics... only to realise how it's filled with so much teenage angst that I don't really feel. Then again, it's a nice song to listen to when you're in a bad mood. I know I put up a lot of song lyrics without saying much but the songs capture so much more than I can.
Untitled- Simple Plan
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Slug loves you
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
Verse 1
He said I was in my early forties, with a lot of life before me
And one moment came that stopped me on a dime
I spent most of the next days, looking at the x-rays
Talking bout' the options and talking bout' sweet times.
I asked him when it sank in, that this might really be the real end
How's it hit 'cha when you get that kind of news?
Man what did ya do?
He said
Chorus
I went skydiving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denyin'
And he said some day
I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'
Verse 2
He said I was finally the husband, that most the time I wasn't
And I became a friend, a friend would like to have
And all of a sudden goin' fishin, wasn't such an imposition
And I went three times that year I lost my dad
Well I finally read the good book, and I took a good long hard look
At what I'd do if I could do it all again
And then
Chorus
I went skydiving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Shu
And I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I gave forgiveness I'd been denyin'
And he said some day
I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'
Bridge
Like tomorrow was the end
And ya got eternity to think about what to do with it
What should you do with it
What can I do with it
What would I do with it
Skydiving
I went rocky mountain climbing
I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu
And man I loved deeper
And I spoke sweeter
And I watched an eagle as it was flyin'
And he said some day
I hope you get the chance
To live like you were dyin'
To live like you were dyin' (4x)
Slug
Faith is a desperate dive out of the sinking boat of human effort
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yea yea, yesterday was a good day...had so much fun and FOOD. haha.
i do visit this blog ok, yup, and i'm blogging! :)
yup, i def hope to see u all frequently...
it's getting late...gdnitez.
~maryann~
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
Yesterday was a happy day.
Yiiwen, Mich and I met Maryann after school at j8 to have lunch. Maryann should come down every friday to meet us! Then we'll get to see her at regular intervals! Went to take neoprints after that, to mark the last day we can ever wear our rg pinafore to school.
Later, yiiwen went to meet her classmates and we took 13 down to Mich's house to meet Sheeyin and play bridge. Was initially supposed to be a sleepover but didn't work out. Haha. Mich was on a losing streak. And we kept getting really high. Its literally impossible to play silent games with me and sheeyin around. This means that our partners get revealed even before the card comes out. Heh. Did a lot of talking about other stuff, till we eventually abandoned the game.
Yes, it was a good day. I hope yesterday never gets lost.
This is random: Diary-x is really much better than blogger. Blogger keeps having glitches, and I've lost entire posts more than once. Plus the entries take really long to load.
I wonder who visits this place anyway.
May
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Friday, April 15, 2005
I can't survive as an individual either. I depend too much on other people to accompany me for stuff. I've been in that kind of situation before too. Yes, we all have little groups of friends. But thats like inevitable i suppose, what with different classes now and all. *shrugs*
Hm, this is such a depressing post.
Shall blog about happier stuff. Much to look forward to after school. Going out for lunch, then to mich ong's house for bridge. I'm still in a high mood. School's ending in an hour!
May
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
The trouble with having a small group of friends is that they may not always be there when you need them. All of them have their own groups of friends too, which may or may not include you. Sometimes you find yourself utterly alone when all your friends are with their other friends. Is feeling sad about this situation being too dependent on your friends and not enough of an individual? Maybe it's the trouble with not having a best friend. But exclusivity is not possible in friendship and it's not possible to demand someone's attention as and when you want it, even as friends. Lonerism has its setbacks.
yii wen
4.30 p.m. 14 April 2005
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I'm surprisingly in a high mood these days. Just have my super rubbishy classmates and friends to thank. I'm freaking myself out.
Just spent more than one hour freezing in the library trying to figure out what was wrong with the new template i created but gave up in the end. Don't expect too much. Its my first attempt at creating a template of any kind. I'll have to go home and use Dreamweaver to figure out what exactly went wrong.
Its been a crazy week. Bio test on mon and chem mock spa and physics mock spa. but after tues my mood seemed to soar. went out for lunch with yiiwen yesterday who seemed to have recovered considerably from her "worst day". we found out that haagen daz is coming to j8! someday, the owners of this blog should go haagen daz and eat the midnight cookies flavoured ice cream together. that'd be so significant.
gelare should move here too. then every tues we'll all go there to eat waffles at half price.
Have training later. We'll be watching some videos of world standard fencing to help us choose weapon. Poke day has been postponed for the millionth time to next tues. So i'll be able to go! Haha. not that it make a diff. most ppl have more or less decided what they want. or at least, what they don't want.
collecting my bow later.
May
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
i'm currently half way through the worsest day in April.
Let me recount my series of horrible events right from the start.
5.32 a.m.: woke up 10 min earlier than normal cos i have to walk to the mrt stn today.
6.30 a.m.: arrived too early at stn
7.50 a.m.: realised i left water bottle in the toilet
9 a.m.: Bio lecture test. Left out the entire last page accidentally.
10 a.m.: PE
11.30 a.m.: realised i left my PE attire in the toilet after changing out.
12 p.m.: Chem mock SPA. Wasted time pouring wrong soln into wrong burette. Din have enough time to do calculations as a result.
Will update you on any more horrible events.
plowing courageously through the rest of my horrible day,
yii wen
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Saturday, April 09, 2005
I wouldn't like to be anything either than me too.
Somehow it seems that as we grow older, life gets more and more complicated. I wonder why. And it seems like the older we get, the more it takes to satisfy ourselves. I'm not prepared for adulthood either. Isn't it strange that when we are young, we look forward to growing up. Yet when we "grow up", we look back on our childhood as being better.
Anyway... they just extended the dateline for change of uniform by a week. I think we're the last jc to do so. Don't you think that girls look more mature when they change into their jc uniforms? Guys just look the same. Or maybe its just me. This means that friday'll be the last day we get to wear our rg uniforms. i'm going to miss it.
I keep falling asleep mugging for bio. I keep reading the same sentence over and over again. yawn.
Maryann crashed yesterday. It felt weird having no fencing on friday.
May
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Thursday, April 07, 2005
hello my dear frens,
how r all of u? hmmm...so u all have gotten yr new uni i suppose. was out with my ex-ex-classmates for dinner tt day and saw them in their new uni...they all looked so diff...yea, grown up. haha, i've started wearing mine for abt a week now...skirts are definitely troublesome. okok, see...i'm blogging w/o being bugged to do so.
till the next post, maryann
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I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention please
if you're not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from crater, stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
- I Don't Want to Be, Gavin DeGraw (theme song of one tree hill :) )
I'm realising that I'm not at all prepared for adulthood.
I don't want to be anything other than me...
Slug
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005
I'm for cullotes. The skirt sucks. :(
Slug
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Almost everyone has changed into their uniform while here i am still waiting for lydia to buy hers so that i can wear it together with her. sigh. its all nicely washed and ironed now, hanging in my cupboard. i'll miss my rg uniform, esp the culottes.
i wouldn't mind culottes as part of the rj uniform. but i guess its time to "grow up". we can't be wearing culottes to work next time.
alot of people owe me treats. lydia and maryann still owe me one from all the way back. yiiwen owes me one. and my classmate owes me one, for losing bets. hah.
my classmate yinghui bet me i could finish 2.4 with an A. I don' t mind treating her if i really get an A, but considering the fact that i just tore my ligament. its highly unlikely.
looking forward to all the treats. haha. i'm such a pig.
May
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Monday, April 04, 2005
Anyone ever notice how irritating it is to wear a pinafore/skirt on a windy day? The darn thing keeps flying up and you have to awkwardly put your hands on it to avoid exhibiting your underwear. Bah. Why can't we have cullottes instead? They're much more comfy and safe and they look like skirts on the outside! hmph. Bet the uniform designer was a guy.
Who's for cullottes?
yii wen
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Saturday, April 02, 2005
may has been bugging me to blog, so i'm posting a note now.
i just realised our blog is one mth old. am i snailsih? it seems like slug realised it b4 me...nvm.
okay, i shall sing a b'day song for our blog:
~happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to our blog, happy birthday to you~ :)
that's all for now i guess...
til next post, Maryann
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