Sunday, February 12, 2006

hey

i share the EXACT same sentiments. i totally agree with your second para. it was as though you were writing out all my thoughts for me.

Many a time in life, when I'm just at that point of giving up, something happens. Something that sparks off a new motivation for it. Something that changes your attitude towards it. That makes you continue with it with renewed vigour. How long that'll last, well, it depends. But the point is that something happens.

quite a few things happened over the past few days for me. actually not too many, just 2 things-my most DoWn moment, the point of utter disappointment and sadness and mental exhaustion,and my happiest moment after what has been happening so far; after all the questions i've asked myself about what i've been doing; after all the times i felt like giving up; after all the times i felt the need to reorganise my life and priorities. its funny how i'm so affected by somethings these days. it's crazy but i cant help but feel affected by what would have never influence me that much.

perhaps some time back, like a few days or weeks back, i'd agree with u on the part where we cant get back to that initial level of enthusiasm. someone once said that INTEREST dies, PASSION never. mine would seem more than just mere interest but less than that of passion.

I felt very tired. Had too many unanswered questions. And it was worse when u feel that THEY dont understand.

Terminal Velocity.
The parachute accelerates.
But comes to a point of zero acceleration.
and its so depressing when it starts levelling off, or deterioriates.


Yet, i've found new hope. it may be sth insignificant in the eyes of others, but it means alot to me. alot. i feel like my enthusiasm has rekindled, it's even boosted.
Quote frm u: "That makes you continue with it with renewed vigour. How long that'll last, well, it depends. But the point is that something happens." I dont know if it will last. or isit just the start of another bolt of enthusiasm that will eventually fade away. only circumstances and time will tell.

Priorities shift. sometimes i think i'm gg the wrong way. right now, i just cant stop. i must sound like i'm crazy but i'm looking forward to gg to school for a particular reason. its a long day tmr, my most hated Monday. yet i'm looking forward to that lil sth.

you dont have to apologise for posting your depressing note here. cos it helps to tell that we're not the only ones feeling what we're feeling at times.
Hang in there.